StephanieLouise

As a working student i have come to the conclusion that i definetly HATE working with a passion, especially if it isn't going to be my career job. See i work at this place called Canadian Tire AKA The child prision. The Managers are MEAN, the Customers MEANER, and the habitate, don't even get me started. The job is just dreadful and tiring I have to constantly lift heavy things that are bigger then me. When you ask the biys for help they say there coming but never show up. The managers always assume you are doing something suspicious.It is Honestly ANNOYING it's worse then sombody poking you with a pencil. It's not even like i can book days off!if i call in and kindly ask if i come in late because i need to stay afterschool then it's a problem. THERE IS NO GETTING OUT! isn't all what i listed against the LAW!? It's not fair i don't have a life! Well i decided that i am going to start looking for a new job. and then when i do i will quite Canadian Tire kindly explain in a letter all of the Managers Problms except one. I am also going to Dance my way out Blasting Some kind of gospel music because i will thank jesus for answering my prayers. My last words will be PEACE OUT and GOOD RIDANCE! and it is then i can breathe and witness happiness.

*SIGH* I needed to get that out.

-Steph.

I have alot to say on this topic of sexuality. Growing up in a house hold were you were brought up knowing that being with the same sex isn't right, i have learned to not neccessarily disagree, but think outside of the box and realize that people should be able to to love whom ever they please. I feel that if they truly love the peron, and it's real then there shouldn't be a problem. I feel that our sociiety is very close minded and judgemental it is discusting. as a society we choose to label eachother negativly, which to me is insane. Our society lable Gay, Lesbian,Bisexual,Transexual etc. as disguting when really all they are looking for is love. Don't get me wrong i disagree when they choose and decide to be lustful and do all that stuff just to be nasty. Which the media usually protry gay people to be. permiscuous and disguting. When really once again all they want to do is feel love and acceptance. they want to feel some kind of comfort instead of constantly living behind this identy that just isn't them. I can honestly be truthful with myself when i say that i stand up for gay rights, even though i am none of what i listed earlier. i just HIGHLY disagree with the way they are protryed, and treated because i have been a witness to it several times. I do feel like NOW we are taking some kind of initative to stop discrimination against the gay community, by being invloved in the PRIDE PARADE (which i will be attending this year), and accepting gay marraiges in church i feel like better things will come if we as a community stick up for eachother instead of constantly putting eachother down because of our differences.At the end of the day we are all human beings we are all alike in some kind of way.

-Steph.

They say music is a type of influence. it can make you change emotion, heel emotion, and change your perspctive on the way you see things. They also say music is a bad influence. But i disagree, because when people say that i feel as if the are generaliszing Music. Not all mucsic is bad. You have your Jazz whixch make you feel relaxed, you have your soul music, and R&B. Those are all cateagories that aren't horrible and damage the human mind. I feel the negaive music that impacts the worl negatively are rap,heavy metal rock,and some pop music. And yeah i notice little girls and boys imating the biggest strats and giving us kids the title of holagins.Wait...Maybe Music does have a big impact on our society and is negative in some forms. as a community well all follow like sheep we constantly duplictae instead of being that one black sheep and is unique. all my music i listen to either realte to me inspire me or make me happy so i know for one i am NOT apart of thoughs "BHA BHA" sheep. I refuse to be apart of a crowd that doesn't grow. I think artist should tone it down alittle bit because they are the ones that are influenceeing others to duplicate thewre horrible attitude. it isn't good and parents and older siblings are encourageing it. I say don't give up on music completely just to choose wisley to what you, and your children listen to. My Music to me isn't negative , actually it is my sanity. I love it.

Steph.

Okay Okay Okay i know i didn't attend the MMVA's. I didn't wait in the line hoping to be one of the thousand of people who recieve a free wristband., and i know i did not travel downtown to go stand up screaming for Justin Bieber Miley Cyrus Headly or Drake. Bu ti did indeed tune in just to be apart of the MMVA experience.And i would have to say dispte the technical difficulty with Drake., and one of Kesha's dnacers dropping on to the floor. It was an overll great show. It isn't everyday you see a whole bunch of stars like that in Canada. I was looking out for fans some people who i knew that would possibly see, but i didn't really see much. it was frustrating because they kept going to the smae people. Huh? Who's performance did i like best? I would have to say Miley Cyrus'es Can't be Tamed Performance, and Katy Perrys California Girls perofmance. They were the best to me. It looked absaloutly amazing on screen i could only imagine how it would have been in person. Although i planned to be there this year things just didn't work out whiched benifited me because of exam pressure, but at the same time i wish i was there, but once again everything happens for a reason. and i am promising my self that next year is my MMVA year no doubt. no one is stopping me weather i have to be there by myself for not. I am going to be apart of the 2011 MMVA Experience. Look Out MMVA for i wil be coming at you with fullforce.

Steph

Like I have been saying in my past couple of blogs that i have a tragic monolough character, which is Tina Turner. So in order for me to become more intouch with my character I decided to borrow a documentary from a friend. My Opinion on the movie? It was a really good movie.even though her story was really sad. there were plenty times where i had to hold my head or conver my eyes because the way tina was abused was so heartbreaking and graphic. i feel like after watching the movie that it would be really hard to play such a strong character. I also found the way the husband "ike turner" raped her was horrible plus ontop of that she was forced to perfom right after. once again the movie was extreamly graphic down to the way the showed the bruises on her face.I just couldn't understand how a man could feel he had the right to even lay a finger on any woman and cause so much damange to a persons body.but it all works out in the end when she stands up for herself. se shows him that it really doesn't matter anymore because at the end of the day she has her ,stage name ,her sons ,and she is successful.At the end of the day i have strong respect for Tina turner and her story.At least now she is happy.

What are my views on friendship? I believe a great friend ship is based on two things which are Trust and Communication. I f you already don't start off witht those two things then there is no point in pursuing that friendship.And if your friendship started off strong but ended up roughly I indeed do beilieve in second Chances.I feel that if the person seems truly sorry and it is there first time making that mistake they will soon realize that it was a lesson and to obviously not make the same mistake again if they care. I do value friendship alot but honestly i don't feel like anyone gets my definition of a friend, because going through the friends i either have or had never really took my friendship as what i claimed it to be. But at the smae time i felt that most days i havn't been giving my 100% i was selfish and put myself first at most time. I felt like I was consumed and wan't my normal self when it came to most situations because I was forced to be around the same bodies constantly. But no w i feel like me i got my breather i can share and voice my opinion in a non agressive way. I know how to be happy and not always see me negative experiences as mistakes but as lessons. I was opened and willing to change and to not live an ignorant life. I just hope my has been friends did too. Just to benifit their future and to not make the same mistakes twice.

Steph.

During work today i was very irritated , witht he pressure of exams and trying to get everything done with a decent overall mark it is constantly added so much pressure to my day. i even got written up at work for supposedly "coping an attitude" when those liars new i was late. anyway all of those things kept adding up and i eventually began to get more and more frustrated, because on top of a horrible day i went to bed at 5:30am in the mornig and still haved to get up to come to my stupid job at 9:00am, but i wom't get into that, but then in comes this costomer with the biggest smile on there faceapproching me to ask for a bike he already prepaid for(and let me remind you sports isn't my department). He kept saying to me " you are the one, you are a special employee, and you are full of luck". From those words i could tell that this customer had a surprissingly jkind, gentle, and warm spirit. he was so interested in getting to know me he kept engaging in converstaion, wondering what school i go to and stuff, and i know i shouldn't tell stranger my personal information ,but i didhe kept telling me he livess in Niagra falls, and he travels back and forth form there to Brampton whenever he has time off so he could be with his family. all of a sudden stragly i felt more comfortable and happier, and the pressure was no longer resting on my head. while this customer was speaking with me he told me one thing that will stick with me for life, a "aha" moment. He told me as humans wewe are constantly negative.That's just human nature, and that ngativity causes you as a person to be protryaed and come off as a jackass, you don't notice but you are also selfish with yourself.PeoplePeople shouldn't live that way. Life is way to short to walk around lie there is a constant thunderstorm cloud over your head.He said we are all selfish for living our life like that. It isn't good that people keep focusing on the bad. If people could just open up their eyes and stop being so self absorbed then maybe this shity world would be less insane". At this point i was jsut quiet i dind't know what to say.I thought he was organic, i couldn't help but put a big smile on my face for the rest of the day, everything he said was true. He continued "because there are other people who are going through alot worse then the average person and they still have a smile on their face. And imagine the whold world turns side ways when we lost our favourite pen. just enjoy lifeand quite focusing on the simple things you turn into bad things. Everything happens for a reason and as long as you put a smile on and are truly happy, nothing should really matter". I will forever remember that moment, because it in'st everyday something like that happens at Canadian Tire. Thanks Eric you really made a big impact as well as inspired me today. You help encourage me to be a happier better person.

Stephanie Williams

Okay so I was speaking with a friend the other day and as I was speaking with him he asked the same question everyone seems to be ask, which was "What is love?" , and to me it isn't a hard question, because I have experienced love and it complictedness. I believe love is something you feel, you can't describe it , it just feels right. Love means you are willing to do any and everything for that person, possibly willing to even die for them. Love means forgiveness and second chances it means many things.Then he asked me "Have you ever felt that way?" I told him at one time I did,but it didnn't last. and I couldn't love someone else the way i loved that peron because in my opinion there is only one true love.I don't believe a second love. How could you love two differnt people the same way to me i don't look at love like that.I told him that some people hate love look at it as this horrible thing but that is because you haven't felt it yet. Well... I got my shot at love , and even if i try to love agin ti would never be the same. My intentions and emotions wouldn't be 100% .At least I know how it feels to love someone and to hopefully felt the same in return. I don't know but the converstaion ended up alittle sad when i asked him "so do you love your girlfriend?" He never responded.

Steph.

I am a humble, kind, and emotional human being who strives for nothing but success. I stand for equality and happiness, so everyone could feel some satisfaction.

It is my DNA to be kind, gentle, and caring person I feel it is my duty to help others feel happy when they are upset.

My moral fibre is to inspire, and to be inspired. I believe it is in me to show people what I see which is nothing but happiness is, that it isn’t always bad to daydream.

My purpose once again is to show people a different side of life, because I feel life wasn’t meant to be lived through misery and constant stress, to take your mistakes and turn them into lessons.
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My destiny is to act and partially to be a secret humanitarian, and through my arts I hope to pursue that destiny.

I feel like I am called to teach lessons through both acting and photography, to show people the importance of life, instead of living threw misery. Truthfully I can’t make a difference in others, until I make a difference in myself, but for now I guess the best thing for me to do is to give people wisdom due to the past mistakes I’ve made and hope it makes a difference.

I am passionate in making a change in both myself and in others. To opening up the minds of people so they could see the beautiful side of the world, instead of focusing on the bad things. I could use my struggles to help someone overcome theirs by being strong and show no misery, to share my opinion as well as share my wisdom when people request it.

I would like to leave a legacy of humbleness, legacy and kindness. I want to be left as someone with a peaceful mind and heart, also as someone who inspires people. I want to leave happy.

I want to be known as someone who has inspired people doing something I love, as someone who is happy, kind, and talented.
I value respect, kindness, and trust I am not willing to compromise when it comes to those three things because I find that they are all really important. Also I believe that those three things make a great relationship those I feel everyone should value those three topics.

I would like to impact the world powerfully yet suttle at the same time, through a creative background.
Before I help others I am going to have to make sure I am bullet proof. I already tend to put others before me. I would be willing to help others try to adapt to change within themselves not to be selfish and to not always point the finger, but to recognize as well as accept their mistakes.

I am strong yet sensitive human being, I am humble, humble gracious and kind. I am a potential world changer due to my creative background. I am Stephanie Louise Williams, and I hope to contribute in making the world a better place.

Let me start off by saying Lady Gaga is just plain weird! Her awkward&corky personality and her super wierd performances are just plain cray. You never know what to expect from an artist like her. My opinion on her?: i thinkshe is absaloutly kookoo! I love her songs...before the video comes out, because half the time the video has NOTHING to do with the song. Like HELLO!? have you NOT seen telephone. I really don't understand what poisoning peoples food killing half the reterant and being thrown in jail had to do with her boyfriend to stop calling her in what I pictured to be a club. I have no idea and although I had no clue what her latest song & video Alejandro ment i new for sure to expect something out of the box. I wonder what makes someone so wierd they say she was picked on but is that the outcome of people who get picked on. do you have to be showing up at award shows with a birds nest around your face, and a tall bright red hat thing that resembles some kind of anti-christ. down to her personality makes me feel awkward. Like i love gay people to but it doesn't me i always have to promote it day by day. But honestly overall i give nothing but respect to Lady Gaga because once again she is making money and selling big hits and is on HECK of a performer that makes the crowd obviously go wild. So besides all her weirdness from her "servere" bullying at school. I say go Lady Gaga you sell your records , you be unique, and make your money, because at the end of the day NO ONE can you you are not a great performer because that is just "ish"!

What sucks about a mistake is that once it happens you can't take it back, that no matter what it is you have to deal with the consequences. It sucks knowing that you hurt someone that you really care about and you can't do anything to change their mind no matter how sorry you are, because at the end of the day things don't run at your clock.Time waits for no one.So wishing and hoping continuosly trying to make things right with someone that just won't accept it is a waist of your time. As much as you would like to make everything okay, you can't because how the other person might feel.So I guess what i am trying to say is to not worry about something you can't change and to make a mistake become a lesson. if you believe in something you have to be paticent and hope things slowly piece back together the right way.

Maybe it isn't bad to give people second chances

-Stephanie Williams

I Got very upset the other day just thinking about how my parents aren't very supportive about what i want to persue in life. being the ONLY artistc Child in the family it sucks because you have your older sister the LAWYER,your younger sister the CHEF ,and the baby sister who want to be a TEACHER.Then you have the artist the person who wants to act and take pictures for the rest of their life. It sucks i can make a career out of what i do as well. Anyway it sucks that there is absaloutly no support. How much more can i support myself? (<----Stupid Question)It going to be so hard trying to do what i have to do inorder to be successful in my career when i can't do what i need to do because all the opportunites are far away. seeing how i am 17 and my parents are so overprotctive they think i am going to get shot just by watching the sunset on my porch. It sucks! and at first i was thinking about changing my whole entire career plan but no who has time to satify other people? I don't want to do that i want to be satisfied with myself i want to finally feel happy with what i am doing.What is my opinion on unsupportive parents???: I say that they are suppose to be highly involved as well as supportive in anything and everything their child loves. i feel like with there support it will encourage and push thier child to do everything at their best. and There is a difference between pushing your child toooo much and supporting them.Don't blame us as teenagers when we are smoking pot ,drinking ,getting high, or having sex, your just not loving or supporting us enough.So i guess i am going to persue what i want with full force there are no limits i have no time to make others happy i have done that for way to long. It is about time i satify me with full force. I am going to persue Acting & Photography for THAT is my passion whether i have support or not.

-Stephanie Williams

Today was the day that i felt an undiscrible emotion. An emotion that consist of sadness , anger,hystarity, and much more! In my grade twelve Acting Academy Class lets adimit i am not doing well there is literally one day left of school and my teacher decides to pull out the assignment that could change all of our lives. the ALT assignment. little did i know it was going to be SOOOOOOOO much.let's back track alittle bit so i could give you alittle play by play of what exactly happend. we were all in class today working on our exam which is also very hectic. Daniel( a filmmaker involved with our class) and i stepped out for a second to voice record my personal statement. At that point i felt like everything was going to be okay. I would get a good mark and everything would just be alittle bit better. Until i stepped back into the drama room. As i entered looking happy i went to find the class hestarically laughing so i though of it as a joke, until a student sitting beside me that the teacher is unpacking our ALT assignment ....FAST FOWARD------> Then i was hestarically laughing and crying at the same time i felt an undiscribable emotion that was so unbarable it was horrible. all of a sudden i had the urge to pee i felt faintish and a big heavy feeling felt like i was just slapped across the face.Because it was then i realized this "ALT ASSIGNMENT" was a 11 sectioned...50 paged...graph filled...included math (which i failed all 3 years) assignment. Can i repeat it was a 24hour assignment yes bloggies the assignment is due tomorrow. As i balanced my elbows on my knees bowed my head closed my eyes and prayed it was then i realized there had have to be some kind of way to get a GREAT mark and NOT do that ALT ASSIGNNMENT. And i guess god is real because i have came to an conclusion to do my leadership with full force to fullfill every thing i need to fulfill. Hopefully it works out and i get a good mark because if i don't then i will be recounting my days for i will be attending Fletchers Meadow secondary School for another year.

Okay so both as a class and as myself we have come to the conclusion that Tina Turner is my Tragic Character monologue. What are my thoughts? Well i am satisfied but living up to the Queen of Rock of Roll brings alot of pressure beacuse her life was sooooooo tragic it would be hard for me to reanact such a tragic life. How am i planning on having such a BANG monolouge performance? Eat Sleep and Breath Tina Turner of course. I need to try and pull those same emotions she was feeling and use them. Also by reading bios, bios, and more bios! I was also suggested watching the movie based on her life called "Whats Love Got To Do With It?" I just don't know how i am going to get such a viscious look? her style is so out there a mig blond streaked mullet, sparkly dresses,a leather jacket, red lipstick, and wicked legs. OH MY GOSH how on earth am i goig to get her voice. OH LORDY! It sure is a challenge no doubt. but i amm willing to give my all or nothig at all, and trust me i have no time to give nothing. *BELL RINGS* It's EXAM TIME!

I am Indeed REALLY Proud of my group's performance and hard work during the process of the relationship scene. We were all very happy about the way our scene turned out. Pulling emotion based on my character was hard during th process but on the performance day i was able to pull it off.I played the role of a crazy ex-wife that is still inlove with her ex-husband.She comes in as an robber armed with an weapon holding up both her husband and new wife at gun point.Once she ties both victums up she reveals herself to both the husband and the wife. she then decides to drags the new woman into the bathroom and locks her in so she could fianlly express her love to her husband and finally say what has been on her mind scince thier divorce. After trying to convince her husband both by her words and body language she is then held up at gun point by the wife that snuck out of the washroom. she then tries to kill her as the wife body language is testing her by telling her to "do it shoot me". But the wife doesn't have the guts to pull the trigger. she drops the gun which then allows the ex-wife to once again get a hold of the gun. she threatens to shoot the husband that she is going to kill the wife until she realizes how much her husband really loves this new woman. so then after reality hits the wife decides to run into the bathroom and before whe goes she enters she says to her husband "Remember in our vows when i told you i couldn't live without you? Well i ment it." she then rushes to the bathroom with her ex-husband fastly following behind her. She then locks the door and as her husband begs for forgivness but it's to late the gun sounds BANG she's gone. This play taught me a lesson but i will keep it to myself. How&Where? did i pull all of those emotions from: Experience. Experience that i will never wnat to experience again. But it was an success and i am delighted about that.

-Tina Turner (We Look Alittle similar? What am i joking, but her live is MAJOR TRAGIC Hard to Duplicate)

-Diana Ross ( We look nothing alike but then again i don't think she would be as challenging as Tina Turner)

-Gabrielle Union ( Who doesn't love her but point even though we look alike and i could act like her pretty easily she isn't at all Tragic..My idol)
I am definetly having a really hard time deciding on which tragic Monologue Character i could do. Someone i look like as well as easy to Relive. When I first heard of this project instanly i thought of Gabrielle Union, but sadly she isn't very tragic. ( I wish it didn't have to be a Tragic Monolgue :(...)So then i swished everything around because someone gave me the suggestion of Diana Ross so i thought about it and she was the next best one, The only issue with Diana Ross is that we don't look alike....:/, So then I thought about doing Tina Turner but once again the only Con doing a tragic monoluge on her is that it would have to be epic because her life was SOOOOOO Dramatic.I haven't thought of another person could do and i need to hurry quick althogh i am pretty sure this third person i am going to do isn't going to be the person i end up doing... But until then.

-Stephanie.

In the past month I have learend many things what to do what not to do, and at that moment when people are telling you something important as well as benificail ,you appear to be listening but really in the back of your head your getting annoyed because it's just the same speech that your mother gives you.Until the day comes when it's too late and there's nothing you could do but feel stuck and full of regret. So now your sitting in a position like what am i going to do with my life? What is best for me right now? Because being LAZY isn't an option. It is time to grow up and to listen to your head and no one elses it is time to do a 360 and prepare yourself and not worry about others, Because all those others could be doing Great.There is absaloutly no time for loving , no time for focusing on friendships,or disputes, no time to just sit aroung thinking about things you can't fix.Once agian that is going to leave you in a postion that just feels wierd. Time to replace all that stuff with books, netwroking,experience, and much more. Well now i know what i am going to do thinking about it i am going to be doing alot post secondary because i WILL indeed be reaping what i sew, not fully though.For I have Learned My Lesson.

-Stephanie.

WELL Oh My GOSH! so much has happend since the last time i have blogged I have watched a great mainstage production, travelled to taste the LA Sun, Get some great opportunites that will be taken place post secondary (yet not stable).As well as learn so many lessons. But this blog will most likely mainly be about Los Angeles. Thinking back i did indeed had a good time just being somewhere else not doing the same regular rutine was enough to put a smile on my face. Sight seeing and witnessing all the different places where big events took place or visting places where Ben Aflect, Will Smith or Gwen Stefani might have been was indeed really COOL. Or driving by scense from the Gilmore Girls, Friends or movies such as the Grinch & much more was very Exciting. So I absorbed as much as i could because sooner or later it was back to Canada doing the samething over and over and over again. ( Not saying canada is a bad place because we are the land of the free)<------Okay corny but true. Anyway the time has come where reality slaps me in the face and it is time to buckle down and get ready.

-Stephanie.

Well truthfully, recently for the longest while i haven't at all been keeping up with this blogging thing but in order to get a good mark and maintain it for the rest of the year i am going to do all i have to do in that short period of time, to get these blogs done, Because like they say good things come with sacrafice. So it is time to replace the sleeping,tweeting,&Watching TV with blogging!

-Steph